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The lies began
in your eyes.

You looked away
so your eyes wouldn’t betray,
but the lies slid down
to choke your throat.

Some you swallowed.
Some you spit out.

When the lies became too much to swallow,
you threw up the truth.

Then the shame shine
in your eyes.

The fear of what you are
mixed with the bile of what you knew
you would never be.

Your lies were no longer a surprise.
Your ignorance was never bliss.

Your thoughtlessness always stung,
but your betrayal was the biggest bite.

I’m the one who put up the fight.
You never knew what was right.

~Bp

Stop nodding your head.
You don’t fucking understand.
You don’t fucking realize.

Stop saying you know.
You don’t fucking know.
You don’t fucking agree.

I explain.
I explain.
I explain.

I never called you stupid,
but stupid is as stupid does,
and you did more stupid
than I can explain.

You said stupid.
You bred stupid.
You lived stupid.

Stupid is as stupid does,
and that’s what it was.

You were stupid is,
and I was stupid does.

Together, you made me…
stupid is as stupid does.

~Bp

Who knew
your smile
would be your biggest lie.

Who knew
the wink of your eye
would be the devil’s signal
to run away.

You knew
your touch
came with deceit.

I should have known
you’d rather fuck a lie
than feel the truth.

Who knew
you pretend to be yourself.

Who knew
your circle of friends and family
was a noose.

You knew
how sick your circle was.

I should have known
the noose was being tightened…
by you.

I escaped that noose,
didn’t I?

You’re still caught in it,
aren’t you?

You prefer the noose,
don’t you?

The noose will catch you when you fall
and comfort you
within it’s
suffocating
ignorant
bliss.

My neck is scarred.
My hands are burned.
My soul is stretched.

I should have known
even love and truth
couldn’t undo your noose.

I should have known…

~Bp

Why do you stay?
Why do you linger?

The person you came with
left long ago.

It’s just me now.
I want you to go.

leave love
love leave me alone

You’re an unwanted guest.
You’re an unwelcome friend.

You like this.

You would keep eating my soul
as I serve it to you.

You would keep drinking my blood
as I pour it for you.

You
Stay here to weep.
You
Stay here to crumble.

I will stumble
before death.

I will humble
before hope.

I will leave love.

~Bp

Just tonight
let me dream again.
Just tonight
Let hope come see me again.
Just tonight
Let me believe in Love ’til the end.

~Bp

Some days you catch your limit…

Some days you catch what you lost…

Some days the only thing you catch is peace of mind…

Sometimes those are the best days of all.

~Bp

These stairs I climb
are not mine.

Each step I take
pushes me up and away.

No matter how many stairs I climb
I can’t escape
the demons in my mind.

The snakes of sorrow
slither just below my feet
hissing my regrets
spitting the venom of my mistakes.

No matter how many stairs I climb
They’re always there,
waiting…

They know I can’t climb forever
so they keep slithering,
and hissing…

Reminding me
I’ll never escape the demons in my mind.

~Bp

Broken-hearted, jobless, and undirected I will move forward.
Not by external forces, but from within I will propel myself.
Unbound, but not unbroken.
The future is forward.

~Bp